Kendra's Life On The Spectrum

When I was a year and a half years old the doctors told my parents I had Cerebral Palsy. They also told them that I would never walk, talk or be normal. Later I would find out that I was misdiagnosed.  When I was in school I was on an IEP (Individual Education Program/Plan).  At my 6th grade graduation in 1995 from the Burnell Elementary Schools  I received the Presidents Award for Exceeding the schools expectations of me.  I still mention it when I am in a support group talking about Achievements.  Another Achievement was getting my learners permit in 2013/2014. I remember I called my father and told him the good news. He was super happy for me.  I also Achieved a lot with my mental health. I joined Al-anon in 2010 and that gave me the foundation for my growth today.  I also graduated high school in 2002.  In 2023 I lost custody of my daughter Jasmine and it broke my heart. I was referred to the RCC in 2024.  I have accomplished so much sinc...

My Autism Journey All I want to do Is Cry. My Brain Works Differently And Some People Ask Me Why. I Have What's Called Executive Function Or Executive Dysfunction. That Is When I Trouble Planning, Organizing, And Paying Bills, I Also Have Depression And Anxiety Which Has Me On Pills. Sometimes I Am So Frustrated And Sad That I Want To Run Away To The Catskills. It Takes My Brain Forever To Wake Up And Start My Day. I Never Knew Why Until I Was Diagnosed With Autism And ADHD When I was 39 Years Old. So I Went 37 Years Not Knowing The Problems I Was Having Were Due To Autism And ADHD. Autism Is Where One Might Have Inappropriate Social Interactions, Unaware Of Other People's Emotions, Or Black And White Thinking. After Reading A Book On Autism In 2019 and Doing A Ton Of Other Research Including Joining Support Groups For Autisitic People I Then realized That I Related To A Lot Of What Was Being Said By Members. Since I was A Older Kid, I Knew That I was Different From Others...

New Kids on the Block and Backstreet Boys Going on Tour

It's been a pretty good month this month, full of ups and downs, laughing, crying, and just going outside to enjoy the weather. Enjoying my nephew's company, Im not a parent but sometimes i look at him with such loving eyes. He is such a good kid and he is my world, he makes my heart smile and my soul soar. Today i found out that i lost weight 9-10 pounds. So that is a big accomplishment, and i called my doctors and made an appointment for june 1st. More about me, I am on the promotions team for a mega hit, and very awesome internet radio station called urradio.com. It is a volunteer job, where i go around telling my friends and family and even people i don't know about the radio station and get them tuned in. We got live DJ's from around the US. Apart from that, i think things are looking up for me, atleast for now. I just got to keep up the good work, work hard to get to where i want to be in life. Dig in deep and get my hands dirty in order to accomplish my goals in ...

I am in a rut right now. I feel stuck and i have no where to go but down. I know i need to start thinking about my future and getting on my own two feet. I might want to take a night course and redo the stuff i forgot that i learned in high school. I want to be a child care teacher and want to just tip my toes into that experience, untill i get the hang of things. I need to take baby steps and focus on what i need to do. I need to get away from my computer and just sit and think about me, like i used to do so many years ago. I know this stuff takes a while but i am sure i will eventually figure it out and get on my own two feet one day.